we were both smoking gals, fire in our hearts
hot to touch,
but warmth was always underneath
i bring a flame to you in my imagination

I can see the writing on the wall
it looks like your obituary
In the room, not yours, I swallow a stone
heavy enough that I might never move
Or reach

Oh it’s so scary to think
one day this will all be gone
My heart a maggot’s feast
Could it be me? That maggot?

the fear of spiders and all things crawling - her

how i sleep, legs and arms all sprawling - him

the way i peel my apples, one long and curling rope - her

God, be still my heart!
thy work of art is clear to see
by my weeping at thy creation of he,
i wonder: hast thou make me a believer of thee?

an entire country under water
a boomerang of cheers
10 dead at my alma mater…

i didn’t care much for flowers
’til you came into my life
and showed me beauty if worth having…

when i die -
you can think of me
in a painstakingly slow-growing plant…

if i die at the hands of a gun
i want every lawmaker
to have to knock on my mother’s door…

there’s an old man at the gym
who reminds me of my dad
and now my heart rate is up…

why don’t we do this forever and ever?
this is my end goal, my whole life’s endeavor
water in the soil, so later we bloom…

i’m not a kid anymore.
here’s a home that i pay for,
one whose furniture i collected…

it’s so strange
you don’t even know what my bedroom looks like
didn’t you use to tell me to make my bed?…

why doesnt our family talk
and why does my phone
know more about my interests…

im looking forward to days filled
with the daily bores of every day
things that bear more …

they don’t know
the amount of care a grandmother spends
rolling rice under seaweed just for them…

im not sad
i just spend a little too long
gazing into dark clouds…

i know, i’m sorry, i love you, thank you
English ⇆ Korean
알아요 미안 해요 사랑 해요 고마워요…

i know
that in the end
my skin shall shed the same…

I sleep
on the left side of the bed,
with all the windows closed …